; suicide.

I'll never forget Henry Lew. He was so smart, understanding, encouraging. He helped me through some of the worst times of my life, and as a troubled teen he was one of the few people on Earth that ever made me feel like I could have a family that was loving, accpeting and caring, because he was more than just my friend, he was my brother. 

He was only a teenager when he took his own life, 17.. his life had barely begun.. We were the same age and his death shook my whole world. Suddenly my brother was gone, without goodbye. I lost someone Id depended on and who I was suppose to help.. Im 25 now, looking back I see an empty space where Henry should have been all these years. I wish I could go back in time, stop him, tell him how life can become anything we want when we get older if he could just wait. I miss him so much.

Ill never get another chance with Henry.. But I do have a chance with you.

I want every single person who has ever thought about suicide to know; someone will miss you. If you ever go thru with it, you won't just be ending your life. You'll be ending others lives in ways they didn't realize was possible until you left them. The whole world will change without you. Please. Don't do it. Don't end your life. You are worth so much. You are loved, even if you can't always feel that. Please. Don't give up.

I also have struggled with suicide. I don't know how I kept going, but I did. Maybe it was for Henry, maybe it was for you. the truth is once you've been in that dark place where ending your life seems like a good option, it can take a lifetime of work and help to come back. I falter sometimes. I think alot of us do. But you don't have to go thru this alone. You may not know me, but know I care about you. 

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